You don't deserve to come.  But if you must you should only do it whilst thinking about what a pathetic loser you are.  You are addicted to masturbation.  You are turned on by your shame.  You are turned on by rejection.  And you realise that no woman will ever want a loser like you.  So you might as well enjoy it.  You might as well accept what you are.  You might as well come to the thought of how disgusting you are.  A humiliating JOI session which will help brainwash and condition you to fully embrace being a nasty addicted loser.
A perfect file for the holidays and sneaking off to the bathroom to indulge in your pathetic desires.